Apparently, it seems like recently what i say had a direct impact on how people see me. Yeah i might as well just shut up, keep all the damn comments to myself so i wont get into any trouble. If i dont lay a finger into any things that is going on, i will be safe, and i wont be deemed as an extra.
to all those that hate me or sthing etc etc. all i can say is, accept the way who i am. cant accept den i also dont care. i live for myself. not to change and to suit to everyone. before anyone can even start insulting others, hope they can just think if they have the right to do so first. if there aint anything perfect in the world, neither are they perfect enough to insult ppl -.-
anyway, wont let all these stuffs affect my mood nor my life anymore. all i know is that i gotta live life tothe fullest. at every stage of life has its own peak of excitement. so im just gona make myself happy, live the fullest in every stage and make sure i wont regret over wads happening. sometimes, being too sensitive might just be as bad as well.
live a new life, a new way, and a way that cares nth abt wad ppl said :)
haha long time no post liao le. Sigh recently kinda bad. got banned from training -_- 1month smemre just becz i over exerted myself. ppl who asked me why i got banned must be laughing their heads off so weak >.>
anyway had a gd day today. morning went tuition as usual den went to tm. helped sing shun to buy that booster. den went home and do hw again. Bio bio bio.. come to think of it, mdm quek has really changed alot though. i mean she doesnt shout for hw that much anymore. although she doesnt really covers everything, after all i think shes great :)
den went parkway just came home. was supposed to meet yingru, in the end she pangseh me -.- nvm xD and the best part comes. i cant resist the temptation so i got myself one booster also. i was like OMG OMGOMGOMGMO after i opened it. Guess what? i got an ultra rare card called Chandra ablzae. sing shun was totally going mad when he heard i got it JUST with one pack. XD im gona keep this card and sell this off when im old man. its gona be so damn worth ^^
anyway, gona go study for my chinese le. got chinese prelim on a short notice next thurs and fri
BYE ! ;D
WHY?
Seriously lately theres so many things i just have to keep asking myself why. Why cant i jst control myself better? Why cant i just stop the vulgarities? Why cant i just train harder? Why cant i just score better results to impress my family? Why cant i just concentrate in everything i do? Why do i keep having to go back into the same mistakes agn even though i said i reflected and learnt from it? Why am i becoming so useless? Why cant i understand that if i dont train harder i cant get into the team? Why cant i understand that if i continue to be a noob, more ppl will look down on me? Why issit that im born with this loud voice and gl face? Why issit dat i cannot change myself to suit others.
If only i can just tell myself, i can control it well and etc. Things might just have been better. I told be4 someone that i will change. It lasted for like a day and tings go back agn. I just have to keep my voice low and stop all my vulgarities and i guess i found out the way. Whenever i feel tired the next day i dun feel like scolding anything and i speak softer. Maybe i shld just mug till 11+ everyday so that at least i can control myself bettter. Althoguh they say ppl have their own problems, i have to understand that i got more. I kept having this violent self of mine inside me. Whenever i feel unhappy i feel like throwing fist and scolding wadeva i can. How am i going to change this.. Hais. I can feel that its irritating when ppl scold vulgarities, so how can i change..
Long time no post liao lo.
Anyway, went gym ytd and learnt something. Sometimes training isnt just about hitting the same limit u hit be4 as always. The real training only starts when ure really really tired but u still have the determination to go on. U have the feeling of giving up, but u told yrself, just 1 min more. And this 1 min accumulates on and on, till it becomes the target u want. Therefore its the same rule in everything you do, 1% of effort placed it may seem little. But when u put in 100days of this 1%, u gained yr 100%. Things all have to start from scartch, but, our main enemy is always ourselves. Only we can determine the outcome, only we can determine whether we will break our record or not. And yr hard work pays off immediately aft pushing off the limits becz u feel that HEY i did sthing that i actually though i couldnt. Haha. Seems lke everything is fun lately.
Talking abt sch makes me feel down -.- havent been performing up to expectations at all lately. cant seem to concnetrate too. hais....
Ultra long nvr post le. Hais, june holiday also so fast over liao. Decided to post today since tomlo is my bday haha. Still rmbered how hectic my bday was last year -_- totally unpleasant. Now so fast 1year already.
Had megaconcert ytd. I think i spend more time joking with loui and danial den watching the concert xD. nice joke loui haha. den went out till like 11++ den reached home. first time i think. den be4 went to esplanade, went to eat dinner with my friends lo. not bad la quite fun though. den wanted to walk to NTUC, be4 i even reached i saw my parents in front. so decided turn back and zao liao haha.
hais sian uh, next week tue O lvl chinese. dne now i still headache like shit :/hope everything goes well tomlo man T_T
hais another day passed. seems like i cant get through a day without quarrelling with my mother lol. seirously she gets very overboard sometimes.
today get back papers. chinese quite lucky la acutally, managed to get 58, so not bad. bio also LOL. at first 73.5 nid one mark. so i spot one mistake then went to get that one mark haha. amaths also damn heng just nice 75. alot careless -.- ss extremely lucky LOL. Sbq managed to tycoly get 18/25. den teacher say those who score well in SBQ didnt score well in SEQ and vice versa. hear liao scary sia. heng uh get 12 marks. den jst nice 60, b4 LOL.
but tomolo 90% chance also die liao. hope all my papers get great results T.T
long time no post liao le. today had some post exams activities. yeah kind feel the class was more bonded. so asked keith and ck wan eat not, then they say that they dont feeel like eating. so i just went to buy mac myself since it was like alr 2 plus. called to ask my mum where is she. went home kena scolding, wow -.- becz didnt buy for them. awesome. say i very selfish.
morning asked her help me take something cz i wear shoe alr she also say no. zzz. den nvm lo. so she went on and on and on. speechless, nothing to say. then she say wad she treat me so gd, i treat her no gd. lol. lucky i bought the gun with my own savings, or else she sure use the gun as a way to threaten say that i wan gun she also buy. i alr i gave her nearly 20o dollars for her bag liao lo. den nvm keep quiet. so she went on agn. seriously felt this anger inside. recently very easily pissed off. i just feel like punching the wall everyday. seems like im getting very rough although i duno why. just now play bball, i duno wad happen to me also. see ball just chiong. and yeah got bashed lol. maybe shld go meditate or something -.-
well, guess the last thing on earth that i shld really love. is my hobby. nvr ending dying love. btw if that person reads my blog, i heard this song and those lyrics, yeah u know it.
"One More Try"
Could be your eyes, could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind.
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need, and know I'll lost.
Lost forever.
[Pre-Chorus:]
Lost forever, and you said this is going nowhere, girl.
And you said I turned my back on.
You said I'll not the only one for you.
Please give me one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another like you.
Could be the lies, could be my pride.
Could be the days and nights so wild.
Could be the times I wasn't there.
And all the nights we didn't share, and now you've lost.
Lost forever
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]I can't sleep, I can't live without you by my side.
So cold, so lost without as my guide.
You made me realise I've nothing, nothing without you.
[Chorus]Baby give me one last try
long time nvr post liao. finally today got time -.-
hais recently very stress.. alot work to do and im not catching up. people ard me seems to be getting weird. first it was someone whom i trusted really really alot, and i found out he actually didnt trust me at all, he had the most negative impact on me. i really shldnt have told him all my probs. den next, my friend today morning sms me, say can lend him tie not. so i said ok. den in sch this morning, i cannot find him he also nvr come find me. i mean he wan borrow thing from me cannot be i go ard searching from him what -.- den 12+ he sms me say oi!tie!. so i just told him i left sch since 10 and i reached home at 11am. Like that he also scold me with vulgarities, call me triple-sci dog. Den i reply back say u also nvr come find me blame me for wad. Den he say STFU la i nvr blame u. ******** alot of vulgar just fly =.=
Today not bad la. 10am end sch alr. shoik uh lol. den when tm with my mum to eat and i saw barn they all. although they didnt see me la. aft that go play arcade, saw my juniors there den play that arcade bball one with them. broke that 250 record :D 370 muahahha.. cant concentrate on my work -.- then decided post. had napfa. jumped 230cm and did 49sit ups. currently both A liao. heng ar, left the rest to chiong alr. i wana get my gold this time -.- nvr get be4 sia.
ok la i go read bio liao bye
hais, woke up today morning and my headache still haven gone. today suppose have tuition but i woke up much earlier so i was daydreaming again LOL. have been pondering over wad she said. so yeah, time to give up and move on with life. my cousin's ex gf told me this, "wads yrs will be yrs. wad isnt wont b yrs". so i guess its quite true. den i was listening songs and i suddenly heard this part abt the sea bird and the fish falling in love was an accident. some song by jay i think. just like us, i dont really think we were meant to be tgt. i guess its just an accident or something. since u have alr reached the point of losing trust and also hate, then i guess its also time for me to move on. defiately this is a dead end, no more hope alr. wads more this way u will also be happy to see this too. so i just uh gona give up and stop chasing you alr. this would be the best way i think. yeah i wont forget abt those gd days. thanks for making me want to change into a better person. gd luck in everything u have.
lastly, a quote by this person from sg forum:
Hi huzane,
As some of the forummers here will have told you, it will be very difficult, if not impossible, to forget your first love.
To have such feelings when you saw him again after a period of time is a very normal reaction, as your heart is still quite confused, and you haven't really got over him yet.
Some of the forummers have suggested that you get into a relationship with another guy, but I will strongly advise you not to do so if you are not ready for a relationship. Instead, you can try focusing your time and attention on other issues in your life, or your own hobbies and interests.
As to when you will successfully let go of him, I cannot answer your question, for it varies from individual to individual. The moment when you will truly let go of him, is when you have come to a conclusion, without any doubt left within yourself, that he is not the one for you.
Cheers.
i guess wad she said is true. i shld move on becz u dont really feel anything anymore. i know its the dead end. there wont be any more hope in this lane.. i guess its jsut we cannot be tgt.
wah very bad state now== headache plus stomach flu zzz feeling very unwell, no mood to study at all.
anyway came across this song, found out the lyrics very meaningful especially for me now
abit blur la, but i think if click on it can see o.o anyway the title is zhe xie ri zi yi lai. quite meaningful la though.
well, one week pass liao. didnt had much to post abt also. oh ya grats to Cboys winning against TK. all the best in upcoming compeitions especially young xuan LOL. u know reason la xD
bah 10+ liao. duno is she forget friday on9 chat or she dontwant to on9..i think i gona cmi soon sia == my eyes burning head spinning liao LOL..
wah seriously cannot liao my head really cmi alr. i really gtg. paiseh... bb and have a gd nite
Phew, another day LOL
Today weather cooling seh, if only it was like this for the whole day but it didnt rain it would have been a very good weather to train.
Nice day tooday, had fruitful day actually. although study awhile den daydream but at least i finally know that bio chapter abt diffusion and osmosis one. finally i cleared my doubts haha. actually now i feel the tb getting more n more useful. last time the tb when sec1 sec2 is really really very no use de. then read this chinese phrase handbook or something and came across this phrase, shi nian shu mu, bai nian shu ren. it meant like it takes a long time to bear the fruits of education like that. quite meaningful la in a way to keep on working hard and dont give up.
den my uncle came so i spend nearly the entire day at my grandfather's hse. did some maths den my uncle ask me go over and watch him play this adventure game on his iPhone. quite fun though. den we had thoughts abt getting that nerf gun so we were like saying ah lets go get it tomolo LOL and seriously we r gona get it haha. hope nothing goes into our way especially the 2 woman =.= my aunt and my mum XD had thoughts of sniper hehehehehe
went pass this temple today, den it wrote outside "Learn to live life as though everyday is the best day. Everyday is a good day but it depends on how one think". quite true la actually. its like yr mood and everything emotions etc is all u control de mah wads more today was more of a family life? had more fun xD
overall today was great la although i felt like smsing. at least i finished one more keroro, so im left with the last one tomolo :DDDD wads more im slacking, watching NBA now hahahah. great day. great day :D hope tomolo will be better. ok la i go watch back liao. BYE ;D
JY MYSELF FOR A BETTER DAY!
just finished amaths stuffs suddenly felt like posting
today like very short day sia. morning went training, wet weather den went gym. aft that likeshoot forawhile play one match and its 11.30 alr. time seems to pass very fast duno why. go home do abit work, den cmi sleep for like 30mins. damn tired....
wake up and i noticed its like 4+ i think. den went to read tb again. wah now i finally feel that the textbook is useful again. last time sec1 sec2 the sci tb is really no use one LOL. now like alot things inside very useful.
den yeah had this feeling she would be online so i just on9 la. true enough she really is on9. den chat awhile, she say she to9 wan studyy so ok la to9 dont chat better, den i go revise work. den during end chat that time she asked me a ques dat made me think of everything again. went emotionally down -.-
so my mum ask me wan go out not, den went opposite to get ice cream eat. but also damn suay la . go there ask milkshake machine spoil, ask milo macflurry also dont have zzzz very f7. den ah forget it la just get normal de and then walk home
den she say no more chat liao wad, so i felt damn bored and just go do gundams awhile lo. finished one more keroro. red one. quite chibi type cz the head very big then the body very small. plus the weapon is very attractive. do fin den on9 and yeah she's online as well. has been chatting till now and i finally found out all the gundam songs i wanted to dl. doing alot stuffs with my phone now xD at first i tot my desktop crash cannot on. den ah mati my notes inside. luckily its working now -.- xfering the stuffs now
suddenly today i was thinking about stuffs. den i suddenly tot abt being happy and sad in life. or like being wealthy and not wealthy etc. actually its like the way u think abt it only. if u compare a very poor man and a very very wealthy man, if the poor man feels that he alr have everything he need, a shelter and can survive well, he can still be happier than the wealty man if the wealthy man like u know thinks he doesnt have enough and needs more. guess life is just about how u look at it.
thinking back at the ques she ask me just now. actually i dont think the main prob here is that i feel sad. i think its just that i cannot get over it only. wads more, i duno why i still feel that feeling of like inside la =/ but anyway, since she set that target of being mature for me last time, might as well stop thinking abt it then. treat it as it nvr happened be4 and live life normally. at least im still healthy and im trying to change into a better person. so actually i still want to thank you for making me want to change to become more understanding,mature and more serious. i know that i havent become wad u want, but i just want to tell you that i really am trying to change. once in sec2 life is enough, i wont want history to repeat itself. my CA results were not very good so i guess its time to really work hard liao le. thanks for making me realise all this stuffs and know how to think. since i promised you i wont bother u that much anymore, got a few stuffs to tell you. dont worry abt wad yr future has, just set an aim and work very very hard for it. make sure u can get it. anything is possible. if the paper set at 100, there must be a possibilty to get 100 otherwise they wont set it, it only depends on how hard u work in order for yr % to get 100 to increase. wish u all the best, and i still like you....
To those who knew wad happen. i just want to say, no i didnt fall for the wrong person. i really did fall for that person, i know wad u guys are thinking. maybe to u all shes ugly, but i dont think so at all. becz i know one thing for sure she is definately a nice person. just dont think someone is ugly and haf negative feelings towards them.
feel much better aft sorting out wad im thinking. nvm bah, everything happens for a reason. im sure my God has His reason for all this stuffs. guess i will just focus on my dream job of being a pilot and train hard in bball then. GAMBATEH MYSELF :D
i didnt know u look down on me too..
all happened ytd ..
was chatting halfway, den my mother ask me off com. offing halfway she suddenly walk in and say that i everyday keep slacking, only know how to play.. den i just relaxed, stay calm and said i have alr done wad i needed to do for today, so now my break time at least give me some time to break right. den she say taht im lying or wad she also wun know becz she duno anything abt work, morning go sch come back less than 2hours den go eat liao, eat le come home sleep den at night still play com. ok lo, nvm i cant possibly speak to her at this moment now, as in she confirm wont believe anythiing. and since i alr offing com to go revise work liao, so aiya nvm la maybe she just angry or something.
den ok dont care, off com. she suddenly say, CA1 SCORE UNTIL SO BADLY STILL EVERYDAY OVER THERE PLAYING COM, SAY NOT ENOUGH TIME TO STUDY. EVERYTIME ASK U GO OUT U SAY U NO TIME TO STUDY, GOT TIME TO PLAY COM. VERY SELFISH LEH. UTHINK YR CA1 RESULTS GET VERY GOOD ISSIT. ITS NOT LIKE U GET ALL STRAIGHT As RIGHT. aft hearing this i was really pissed liao, at first is she say dont worry, my CA results not bad alr. work harder. and then ytd she saying another thing.. i hate this type of kou shi xin fei people sia. say one thing heart think otherwise... den say i selfish. she go the place i go there also nothing to do. u expect me to go see clothes with you issit. this week got gundam fair at northpoint, i ask u go u also say very sian and far, nothing u can do. den i also got nothing to do right. wads more i asked politely, whether i can go myself not she also say no. ok lo fine i train at home. den say wad CA is the easiest to score and i get so badly. its not like i nvr try my best right. ok la fine la my physics sucks la 49/100. other people smarter den me ok fine i acecpt it u happy can liao. if everything was so simple as you say, u can try and read it yrself wad right. i really really did everything i can liao den u dont believe me wad can i do sia.
aft that she say she want tell mdm lim to stop my trainig so i got time to study. i was thinking, eh walao eh can dont like that or not. she expect me to sit there and study everyday isit. baskebtall is the only time i can relax myself and be serious in something i lke now den u go stop it for me to study. u wan me to study 24/7 issit. den okok fine, i accepted everything, she look down ok lo, look down. nvm i can take it. the worse part is, why must she insult my gundams. she say that i no time to do my work got time to play gundam, play those waste time stuffs. i didnt even finish one gundam so far in this 3months ok. i only worked like 20% there only. den they are my last source of happiness also cannot issit. she say i everyday keep msn and sms. or else wad? u wan me to sit there study 24 hours and den go sleep? at least let me talk to people right. im alr so blooody lonely at home, no one to talk to, no one to find and train or something. den obviously i can only be with my gundam right. u nid to like that insult them or not. i like my hobby got wrong issit...
seriously i think im destinied to be alone or something one. at most have gundam with me only. from pri sch till now, everytime when the teacher spilt group, teacher split one, i confirm kena seperated from my friends one. even last time tkps the shark cobra stuffs i also alone in shark -.- that time go eat with keith they all i also kena seperated. no matter wad group or wad thing i do im bound to be seperated from others. even sec3 class i also alone. my mum say i everyday talk to girls, dont even have a gd guy friend. how u wan me to find a good guy friend when everytime they jio u outu always reject. if u got this friend, u everytime ask that friend out, she always say no.. den u still wan to ask her next time not or wuld u even wan to be close with that person? at first i tot that my life will be better soon on last sunday. in the end wed i lonely agn. still my gundams are there. my last year sec2 bday, also becz of yr beliefs, my friend cannot come. many people sian and had to cancel it. in the end i also spent the entire day with my gundams. do i really have to be only with my gundams or not.
den like that she nt happy say tomolo i no nid go training. wdh la im dying for training everyday den u suddnly say dont go. ok fine today i study from morning till now, lunch fin in 10mins. DEN she come and say why u study so much. can break not. hais =.= for heaven's sake can u even tell me wad u want or not. ytd is u say u wan me to study so much. now i study, morning i also nvr on9 to chat to chiong hw. den u come say ask me rest more...
den good lo, now u go out i on9 15mins, wad happen? she going out till night. at night i want to on9 to talk liao leh? she got archery. thank you very much my mother.
den my dad he always keep quiet when i kena scolding or something. cant he just speak up for me or something. sometiems i just wish i had a sister or brother elder den me to stand up for me and prove that i really was studing.. if only such stuffs came true, i wont be so bored anymore to have someone i can talk to.
guess i will just have to stick to my gundams for now till one day a miracle happen... if only things could have happened as wad i have dreamt this morning.. if it did, i guess i wont be that lonely anymore at least for this 2years..
well, i guess today could have been a week. still somehow a litle bit cannot get over... last week this time.. tgt le, still smiling.. who knows... less den a week later, not only the smile was gone, but the sadness came tgt as well.
hais.. bro ask me to handle this calmly. how did he even got through all these stuffs so easily like notthing as happen de sia.. i mean i know that she wants to study, shes afraid it might affect her studies and she prefres to be alone rather than got people with her etc, i can understand la... my mind kept telling me i can understand but my heart just kept feeling this sadness....
i mean i dont cry anymore, i am working hard to become stronger and smarter.. my results was like 11position and 66%. although not bad, im still quite sad with my physics.. totally felt like a double blow... 49/100.. just one mark also dont give me..
den that day wed at first i tot maybe still got chance to study tgt and help, aat least still got quite close friendship... who knows.. she say she will find a way out like she always had..
hais.. now listen to songs also cmi alr.. more than words stay the same and especially bogoshipda.. this 3 songs listen le also cannot take it..
can someone please tell me how in the world can i even feel so damn sad...
the girl that made my happiest day and also my saddest
3days of real love just ended in a min on this date at 7pm+..
i dont know why i just felt so damn sad that i have been crying since 7 till now.. its just 3days and i felt so damn sad.. i didnt even felt this sadness when i was with melody..
at first i couldnt believe we are gona wait till the time comes.. but now i know i maybe the last one standing in wait for her...
i didnt blame her.. i must have done something wrong or look ugly or just sucks that she doesnt like me anymore.. maybe she really did just felt love on the first day..
my first elearning of the year was spent with her... i just cant believe its gone.. its all gone...
i dont even have the mood to study at all.. im not angry at her.. i just feel damn sad that i dont even know why..
4hours ago, i was still at the libray with her.. and promised i would work hard.. i didnt know that actually 3hours later, it changed my life..
when i was with her.. i felt so motivated to study.. i really liked her alot.. and i really meant alotalot.. i just cant accept it shes gone.. 3days of love. a min and shes gone.. why isall this happening... WHY..
how am i going to face her..i just feel so damn sad now... I JUST CANT BELIEVE SHES GONE..
she made me extremley happy on sunday.. but also on wed shes gone..shes really gone.. for the first time i felt like i really fell. a very hard one.. although she dont like me anymore, i still feel that i like her very very very very much...
hope that you will see this, just this part. i know i did something wrong i guess, but i really like you. i dont mind waiting for you. seriously..
i guess its all too late to say this stuffs. maybe my gundams are really the only one for me till im at the age for someone i like..i just want to tell u i dont want you to be alone.. i really want to be with you..
if fate just doesnt do so, den i guess i can do nothing either..
dont have a loner life.. hope u find someone else better..i really hope that one day we can be tgt again.. i am waiting for tht day.. wish u all the best and if we really cant be tgt.. i guess its just my fate that i always will be ditched, and wont have a gd friend too..
suddenly had this feeling of trying to pour everything out....
well no one reads this Godforsaken blog anyway, might as well just shoot...
things being going bad for me lately..nothings going on smoothly. i mean look, in class i cant keep up with the standards at all. those schloars all very very hardowrking.. i dont haf that mood anymore... in sci class i sit beside someone who scored 91 for sci last year to wipe ou the entire lvl and his sci is like 1000x better than mine..
sprained my leg recently and it isnt getting me any further... on sat i srpinead it and up till today it isnt sohwing great improvement. doc,bro,parents and everyone all forbids me from going t pahang camp becz of my injury... seriously wdh is this. why must i always b the one that is left out from everyone..last time chalet, i cant stay, that was alr a super big regret... and now wad? i cant even go for a sec3 camp... so my mum n dad was tlaking to me just now... mum scolding me saying why am i not careful and dont want to let me go.. seriously i dont know wad to say. she scolds me for my injury.. i didnt want it to happen either but wad can i do... God has His reasons for this but how m i gona make her understand that, and i was standing while tlaking so i dont really dade to add weight on my injury. guess what, my dad said, can u stand properly, u look as though u wan to fight... is he mad? cant he see that i haf an injury... wads wrong with this ppl. i didnt want to go to school tomorrow becz i wanted to u know rest and so i can go for monday.. thats how the quareel broke out. my mum was asking me to go becz she said dat if i was going to skip sch to rest for my leg and go for monday, she asked me not to have high hopes becz most likely i wont b making it. so i thought, ok.. calm down, God's with you, he loved you and he knows that this is best for you. so i thought den let me just go to sch tommorrow, i dont care about this damn injury anymore. even if it heals or doesnt heals i still cant make it. wads the point, it will still b my 4th regret in life. becz my mum wanted me to go ot sch in the first place so alright i agreed. and now she just hanged her ideas of asking me not to go. i cant take this right now seriously, i gave up the damn camp so i can go to sch and she thinks the other way, seriously WADS WRONG WITH THIS PEOPLE. DONT THEY UNDERSTAND THAT IF I DONT GET TO GO ITS LIKE A BIG REGRET IN LIFE. I DONT GIVE A DAMN IF I BROKE MY LEG. SERIOUSLY I JUST WANT TO B PART OF IT. but they can nvr understand it...den i tot, nvm let me go to sch study and u know that 1week, i can haf it as anohter 1week holiday then. but she changed and said dont go. WHY MUST THINGS ALWAYS GO THE OPPOSITE WAY, SERIOUSLY WHY?so now cant go tomorrow, i missed my lessons and if monday i cant go again its a double loss... im really lost for words. i hv been crying for almost 30mins... why must my life always be filled with all these type of stuffs. recently things werent going smoothly.. y?
they always say everything happens for a reason... but wads the reason for this... its only casuing me more misery..
wad a ragged road. cant make it out in studies, get owned by ppl in gmae, dad scolded me today for abosuluye obvious reason STANDING IN FRONT OF HIM and yet he cant see it. ppl i loved haf also seems to be more distant away from me.. i dont know why i just feel the distance.. recenetly i just told her i dont want tot chase her anymore cz i found out i was like a 3rd party between her and another guy. that was alaso the guy she loves and that guy was willing to wait for her... so i tot wads the point, i cant chase her anymore, even if i did chase until her, i cant stead. i got so many things to cope. theres no way i can stead and i promised be4my cousin i wont stead...
Well, 8+pm le hahahas im suppose to go out alr but I still want to type this for a few ppl hahas, some sort of message bah XD XD haf fun everyone:)
For:
Joel
Yo dude, rmb to meet me up aft i come back ok, i will be waiting for it :) study hard and get good resutls :))) rmb this... " making my way downtown, walking sthing, faces past and im home bound~... Im gona nid u~ Im gona miss u~ and now i wonder~ " ahahaa that show rocks :))
Mummy
Haha hi mum:) dont get too crazy ok. Rmb to get my fuse fixed and yr wires done xD Happy watching yr movies DONT FORGET TO STUDY AR :)
Machine gun :)
hahahah helo gunn.... dun shoot ppl too much with yr HAHA ok :) XD.. Dont admire yr korean bf too much till forget to study hor hahahah xP If u bored de hua nth to do go find merri xmas bah:) shes always free and available 16/7 XD.. Dont miss me ok? hahahah jkjk.. take care in sg:) and rmb... its okay luh jiejie, its okay hehe.. dont sleep too late...U HORRRR... ME HOR... U UH.... XDXD promise u will behave and take lots of pic to let u c:) hahaha k la gtg le. Love u :))) miss u too :) 1thing 2 do 3 words 4you? understand alr this time? hahahahahas. rmb we gg meet up so DONT FALL SICK :)
Merri xmas:)
HELLO MERRIIIIIINESS... hahahaas rmb to pei machine gun ok :) xD study hard hor. Dont go too crazy. Bear with yr com lagness hahaahs, AND HOR TODAY U DIDNT TALK TO ME OK! :@ xD hahahas. Haf fun in yr SPONGEBOB LAND... u r going to miss patrick for awhile becz he will be away :) so... am i going to take all yr tears with me? hahahaah no? xD take care in sg hor.. i will come back in ONE PIECE becz i got NO stm hahahahahs anyways, take care:) dun anyhow teach machine gun aliean language :) Love u and miss u :) annd rmb our meeting up hor! xD
Parrot
HELLO PARROT :))))))))))))))) XD no la jkjk... u hor better study ok. dont audi too much:) must take care of yrself and dont fall sick ok hahaha... dont get pigeon virus hor! its very contagious:) take care :) miss u :) hearts u :)
Dayi
ELoo.... although we dont talk much :) but still take care and study hard:) aft i come back free wan go popepye??? u treat me lah ok? HAHAHAHHA JKJK :) xD
k la.. 8.30 le. i gtg alr. i hope i didnt miss anyones name hor? xD.. well take care all :) and i will haf fun :) Bye~ dont miss me ok ahahahah jkjk :)
Wah psps, so long nvr post alr:X
Exams finally over, chalet also over, report card take le everything also done le ... left holi hmk:) den prepare next year liao le...
To9 im going to Japan liao le.... soooo bye bye :)
to my best uncle in the world, u rocks
ok, i thought for a really long time be4 i decided to post abt this, its going to be very emo, so those who cant take it, pls press alt F4 first. its no longer abt friends, its abt my relative....
ok dude, i hope u ever get to see this. i know, recently alot of stuffs have happened, and although i dont know wad the reason is, it seems to fast to happen.... its just be4 my bday week that everything happened, i was still decidding to go to yr hse and celebrate.. unfortunately it didnt came true, and stuffs started to happen...
anyway, to cut it short, i just want to tell u, we haf been through the most and u made me super happy in my life. it all started since i was p5, and my life turned into a big turn and i was very happy till sec2... rmbered the first time u brought me out to this place, we watched the prestige tgt at gv? i will nvr forget that. to think back, we watched many many shows tgt, and during my sec1 june holidays, u came and stay which made my life even better. we had arnolds, went out at 1am to have mac secretly, played poker and i won 50bucks and lost it again... we watched F1 and we all both betting tgt haha, we just had many fun moments tgt.
and of cz, i will nvr forget this. wadeva u haf taught me i will nvr forget. i will rmb to drive u in my sports car when i grow up, i will rmb u when i go up high as my best uncle. we will go to many many places one day if i ever made it big. we went to kl tgt, watched jay's dao xiang song mtv and u were asking me abt it... u taught me not to listen to songs but i didnt heed it... now i know its true. although i dont know when we might even be able to go out and haf fun again. i jus want to let u know i know my mistakes and i will always rmb u. those songs we always sung tgt like mad person, kelly clarkson breakaway, behind those hazel eyes, chi xin jue dui.. and most imptly ni de ming Zhi ni de xin yue. i will definately play that in my marriage...
gd luck to u in yr upcoming life, i hope to see u again and u shall always be my best uncle, brother and dude foreva.. bros man!
finally gt sme time to post again xD
recently things gt worsen i think... cant really fit it into talking wif mst of them or even all... so i guess the only way to make things better is not to force yrself into joining in. forget abt it bah. at least i gt some time to either study or do my gundams. decided to bring my gundams to sch and do liao hehe.. since mr sara didnt state that its banned:D
sian sia, kip on like that i think im going to go depressed soon, and i really guessed it correctly... no one reads my blog lol....
den that day teacher was talking abt blogging and teacher dunno wad ask abt blog web or sthing and ck said my blog... lol.... den ryan heard the url and told me. " im going to google yr blog and spam it..' then i was like lol.. spam spam lo, make my blog mre lively i happy leh zzz -.-
anyway i go sleep le zai jian~
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