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suddenly had this feeling of trying to pour everything out....

well no one reads this Godforsaken blog anyway, might as well just shoot...

things being going bad for me lately..nothings going on smoothly. i mean look, in class i cant keep up with the standards at all. those schloars all very very hardowrking.. i dont haf that mood anymore... in sci class i sit beside someone who scored 91 for sci last year to wipe ou the entire lvl and his sci is like 1000x better than mine..
sprained my leg recently and it isnt getting me any further... on sat i srpinead it and up till today it isnt sohwing great improvement. doc,bro,parents and everyone all forbids me from going t pahang camp becz of my injury... seriously wdh is this. why must i always b the one that is left out from everyone..last time chalet, i cant stay, that was alr a super big regret... and now wad? i cant even go for a sec3 camp... so my mum n dad was tlaking to me just now... mum scolding me saying why am i not careful and dont want to let me go.. seriously i dont know wad to say. she scolds me for my injury.. i didnt want it to happen either but wad can i do... God has His reasons for this but how m i gona make her understand that, and i was standing while tlaking so i dont really dade to add weight on my injury. guess what, my dad said, can u stand properly, u look as though u wan to fight... is he mad? cant he see that i haf an injury... wads wrong with this ppl. i didnt want to go to school tomorrow becz i wanted to u know rest and so i can go for monday.. thats how the quareel broke out. my mum was asking me to go becz she said dat if i was going to skip sch to rest for my leg and go for monday, she asked me not to have high hopes becz most likely i wont b making it. so i thought, ok.. calm down, God's with you, he loved you and he knows that this is best for you. so i thought den let me just go to sch tommorrow, i dont care about this damn injury anymore. even if it heals or doesnt heals i still cant make it. wads the point, it will still b my 4th regret in life. becz my mum wanted me to go ot sch in the first place so alright i agreed. and now she just hanged her ideas of asking me not to go. i cant take this right now seriously, i gave up the damn camp so i can go to sch and she thinks the other way, seriously WADS WRONG WITH THIS PEOPLE. DONT THEY UNDERSTAND THAT IF I DONT GET TO GO ITS LIKE A BIG REGRET IN LIFE. I DONT GIVE A DAMN IF I BROKE MY LEG. SERIOUSLY I JUST WANT TO B PART OF IT. but they can nvr understand it...den i tot, nvm let me go to sch study and u know that 1week, i can haf it as anohter 1week holiday then. but she changed and said dont go. WHY MUST THINGS ALWAYS GO THE OPPOSITE WAY, SERIOUSLY WHY?so now cant go tomorrow, i missed my lessons and if monday i cant go again its a double loss... im really lost for words. i hv been crying for almost 30mins... why must my life always be filled with all these type of stuffs. recently things werent going smoothly.. y?
they always say everything happens for a reason... but wads the reason for this... its only casuing me more misery..
wad a ragged road. cant make it out in studies, get owned by ppl in gmae, dad scolded me today for abosuluye obvious reason STANDING IN FRONT OF HIM and yet he cant see it. ppl i loved haf also seems to be more distant away from me.. i dont know why i just feel the distance.. recenetly i just told her i dont want tot chase her anymore cz i found out i was like a 3rd party between her and another guy. that was alaso the guy she loves and that guy was willing to wait for her... so i tot wads the point, i cant chase her anymore, even if i did chase until her, i cant stead. i got so many things to cope. theres no way i can stead and i promised be4my cousin i wont stead...

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