i didnt know u look down on me too..
all happened ytd ..
was chatting halfway, den my mother ask me off com. offing halfway she suddenly walk in and say that i everyday keep slacking, only know how to play.. den i just relaxed, stay calm and said i have alr done wad i needed to do for today, so now my break time at least give me some time to break right. den she say taht im lying or wad she also wun know becz she duno anything abt work, morning go sch come back less than 2hours den go eat liao, eat le come home sleep den at night still play com. ok lo, nvm i cant possibly speak to her at this moment now, as in she confirm wont believe anythiing. and since i alr offing com to go revise work liao, so aiya nvm la maybe she just angry or something.
den ok dont care, off com. she suddenly say, CA1 SCORE UNTIL SO BADLY STILL EVERYDAY OVER THERE PLAYING COM, SAY NOT ENOUGH TIME TO STUDY. EVERYTIME ASK U GO OUT U SAY U NO TIME TO STUDY, GOT TIME TO PLAY COM. VERY SELFISH LEH. UTHINK YR CA1 RESULTS GET VERY GOOD ISSIT. ITS NOT LIKE U GET ALL STRAIGHT As RIGHT. aft hearing this i was really pissed liao, at first is she say dont worry, my CA results not bad alr. work harder. and then ytd she saying another thing.. i hate this type of kou shi xin fei people sia. say one thing heart think otherwise... den say i selfish. she go the place i go there also nothing to do. u expect me to go see clothes with you issit. this week got gundam fair at northpoint, i ask u go u also say very sian and far, nothing u can do. den i also got nothing to do right. wads more i asked politely, whether i can go myself not she also say no. ok lo fine i train at home. den say wad CA is the easiest to score and i get so badly. its not like i nvr try my best right. ok la fine la my physics sucks la 49/100. other people smarter den me ok fine i acecpt it u happy can liao. if everything was so simple as you say, u can try and read it yrself wad right. i really really did everything i can liao den u dont believe me wad can i do sia.
aft that she say she want tell mdm lim to stop my trainig so i got time to study. i was thinking, eh walao eh can dont like that or not. she expect me to sit there and study everyday isit. baskebtall is the only time i can relax myself and be serious in something i lke now den u go stop it for me to study. u wan me to study 24/7 issit. den okok fine, i accepted everything, she look down ok lo, look down. nvm i can take it. the worse part is, why must she insult my gundams. she say that i no time to do my work got time to play gundam, play those waste time stuffs. i didnt even finish one gundam so far in this 3months ok. i only worked like 20% there only. den they are my last source of happiness also cannot issit. she say i everyday keep msn and sms. or else wad? u wan me to sit there study 24 hours and den go sleep? at least let me talk to people right. im alr so blooody lonely at home, no one to talk to, no one to find and train or something. den obviously i can only be with my gundam right. u nid to like that insult them or not. i like my hobby got wrong issit...
seriously i think im destinied to be alone or something one. at most have gundam with me only. from pri sch till now, everytime when the teacher spilt group, teacher split one, i confirm kena seperated from my friends one. even last time tkps the shark cobra stuffs i also alone in shark -.- that time go eat with keith they all i also kena seperated. no matter wad group or wad thing i do im bound to be seperated from others. even sec3 class i also alone. my mum say i everyday talk to girls, dont even have a gd guy friend. how u wan me to find a good guy friend when everytime they jio u outu always reject. if u got this friend, u everytime ask that friend out, she always say no.. den u still wan to ask her next time not or wuld u even wan to be close with that person? at first i tot that my life will be better soon on last sunday. in the end wed i lonely agn. still my gundams are there. my last year sec2 bday, also becz of yr beliefs, my friend cannot come. many people sian and had to cancel it. in the end i also spent the entire day with my gundams. do i really have to be only with my gundams or not.
den like that she nt happy say tomolo i no nid go training. wdh la im dying for training everyday den u suddnly say dont go. ok fine today i study from morning till now, lunch fin in 10mins. DEN she come and say why u study so much. can break not. hais =.= for heaven's sake can u even tell me wad u want or not. ytd is u say u wan me to study so much. now i study, morning i also nvr on9 to chat to chiong hw. den u come say ask me rest more...
den good lo, now u go out i on9 15mins, wad happen? she going out till night. at night i want to on9 to talk liao leh? she got archery. thank you very much my mother.
den my dad he always keep quiet when i kena scolding or something. cant he just speak up for me or something. sometiems i just wish i had a sister or brother elder den me to stand up for me and prove that i really was studing.. if only such stuffs came true, i wont be so bored anymore to have someone i can talk to.
guess i will just have to stick to my gundams for now till one day a miracle happen... if only things could have happened as wad i have dreamt this morning.. if it did, i guess i wont be that lonely anymore at least for this 2years..
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