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WHY?

Seriously lately theres so many things i just have to keep asking myself why. Why cant i jst control myself better? Why cant i just stop the vulgarities? Why cant i just train harder? Why cant i just score better results to impress my family? Why cant i just concentrate in everything i do? Why do i keep having to go back into the same mistakes agn even though i said i reflected and learnt from it? Why am i becoming so useless? Why cant i understand that if i dont train harder i cant get into the team? Why cant i understand that if i continue to be a noob, more ppl will look down on me? Why issit that im born with this loud voice and gl face? Why issit dat i cannot change myself to suit others.

If only i can just tell myself, i can control it well and etc. Things might just have been better. I told be4 someone that i will change. It lasted for like a day and tings go back agn. I just have to keep my voice low and stop all my vulgarities and i guess i found out the way. Whenever i feel tired the next day i dun feel like scolding anything and i speak softer. Maybe i shld just mug till 11+ everyday so that at least i can control myself bettter. Althoguh they say ppl have their own problems, i have to understand that i got more. I kept having this violent self of mine inside me. Whenever i feel unhappy i feel like throwing fist and scolding wadeva i can. How am i going to change this.. Hais. I can feel that its irritating when ppl scold vulgarities, so how can i change..

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